Will he be my MR.Right?

Story telling again =p

Alright, to make it short, 2 days never see him dy...

cause I got to wake up as early as 7 am almost every weekdays.

Tired, so decided to sleep early, and he went "da gei" with his friends.

On the third day, he came over to my house. We argued. Requested to break up again XD. It happened almost twice a month. Reason? FACEBOOk~

It was so lame, all over.

Anyway, what he told me that day,

IT WAS A BIT WEIRD.

I LIKE IT ><

"You are so perfect. Only your body figure is a big problem. If you able to slim down till Xkg, I will gift u a laptop of your own choice, RM500 cash plus shopping for unlimited stuffs at once. WOW! "

I am given 1 month time to compete .

And!

If I reach Ykg, He will proposed to me ==|||

Sweet-NYA~

Hello to my fats!

Trying to hide my fats >.

Chubby arm, Chubby hand, Big stomach.

Shit ==

Every weekdays have to head to the college dy..

For Classes and Part time job as well.

My time was so pack ..><

But weekends was so empty..

Who wanna date me on weekends x..x

By the way, Im getting fatter and fatter !!!!

Damn it!

And I cut my hair.

Hair getting shorter and shorter ...

So sad!

I need to do something to it!!!

Supernova club ..

My own makeup and black dress purposely bought for clubbing >3

Too bad, I still failed to wear fake eyelashes TT

Time to blog again =o=

Now only I realize they are actually few of my friends who read my blog ><

Thanks for the caring again >,<

I'm more into night life since he appeared in my life.

Last week, clubbing in Supernova, some where near KLCC.

Enjoyed my second time clubbing =p

Get to know few girls over there.

Performance by lengzai and lenglui.

That guy gt my attention , he's so handsome ><

I drank a lot that day, keep go to the toilet.

And the girl keep accompany me =)

I love the music quality at there >3

About 2 something, left the club.

On the way to the parking street, I fall down , cause I was drunk.

After that, yumcha session in Steven Corner near my area.

Without cleaning myself, I just laid on the bed.

Enjoyed that night >3

Started to love clubbing >

So pain..

Red....

I'm back >3

Glad that I'm here .
Been so emo-ing in previous post.. =p IGNORE kay =)
Is the 4th day since the new sem begin . Properly will be busier than previous sem as I got my part time job in college again . Everyday got to wake up as early as 6.30 to get ready for 8 am class!!! Class+part time job until 5.30pm almost every Monday until Friday.! Wednesday have to force myself to gym!
I am so terrified with my meats! Meatball! Last week, went to Petaling Jaya, for Amway events intro by a net friend of mine.

Got to know a lot of people over there. They persuade me to join their classes in Cheras. There are makeup class as well. Too bad, he don't support me ! So lose the opportunity to learn something new. ..

FYI, my laptop modem spoil :( So lately, I wont be blogging for some time. Do miss me if you read my blog =) I love you READERS ! I know I'm not as famous as THEM, As long as I start a blog, write my thought Out, Doesn't matter they are People to read it or not! I write for my own SAKE >3

Last Message?

I really so so so so so stressful.

I have no idea what to do already.

I already out of mind. Lost my mind.

Sitting in the cybercafe, in front the computer on the corner side, tears keep dropping.

Im a loser. Really a loser.

Why you bring me to this world?

I love to be happy, but why you dont give me happiness?

I cant feel the family love. So I search for love in the public.

I thought I found one, and it end up like that.

No Money,

No Family,

No More Scholarship,

No More Him,

Left Me alone in the House.

So Should I just say Goodbye and leave now?

I am used to be a very positive-thinker. I dono. I dono what will happen next.

He is still in the house. And planning to go Genting, act like nothing happening.

Everyone told me to leave him, not to be with him, he aint a good guy, but I still choose to stay around him. I choose the wrong path.

Since I already chosen the road, what to do now?

PS . Please do not take this as a note or sign to commit suicide ya, cause I'm neither Alan nor Alvis Kong. I just blog what I feel.

Regards, Khai Mean

Im totally LOST>

I have no idea what happen to me recently.

I have change to another person. CHANGE...

Not a bad idea too, BUT...

I change because of him,

He never appreciate it..

Everyday keep get scolding from him..

Keep complaining me...

Why I wouldn't I just let go...

Cause I love him....so much?

Everyday, Flirting with other girls ...through online,

Even though just through online,

How would I know if he do it in real life as well?

You told me , your phone inbox full with my messages only,

Halo...there's a button called "Delete", and Im not a 3 years old kid, OKAY?

I message you a sweet message in English, you replied me "you dont understand what is the content about"..

If you got the heart to find out, you can search the dictionary or ask any of your co-worker who know English right?

I really so fade up with you , YOU KNOW ~

Im really damn farking HATE myself...

Why am i born to be fat?

Im so desperate to be lenglui....

I have more than 1000 reasons to be lenglui than being the current me right now..

I dont want to be plum, i need "S"..

I am so emo right now..

I promise this will be the only post on emo-ing,

I have no idea who I can share with my feeling,

So I choose to blog.

Cause I know, nobody bother to read my blog too =)

And Im trying to skip meals..not to eat, control my appetite...

See how long I take to be slim.

Remember, MR.W,

I would remember and do the same thing as what you did to me right now,

when I got the chance =)

Im choose to stay with you,

not because of I love you so deeply,

is because..

IM FEAR OF YOU! FARK!

I cook for you,

I help you to wash clothes,

Even some time you called me to go downstairs da pau for u,

Did I even reject of doing anything you order me to do???

I help you to call the Help center to solve your problem,

Help you to go bank and clear your payment,

At the end,

What did I get?

My requests a lot?

What I asked you to do for me?

WHAT??

You promised to change phone for me..

Then, suddenly, you said not enough money..

Dont siao la..

keep it for your another GIRL kay =)

I am so farking EMO.....desperate..

I AM TOTALLY LOSE FAITH IN TRUE LOVE ! DAMN it!

General update

SPOT THE DIFFERENCE ..?

Of cause look nicer on first picture ...

Went to 2 different saloon on the same week. The second picture cost me RM13 for a hair cut. Cheap but ugly. 2 days later, cannot stand with my hairstyle, went to the saloon that I usually went to for another haircut. Look far nicer. But it only stand for one day, as she help me to do some straightening. Meanwhile, I have to stand with my ugly hairstyle right now ...aiz..

My face look so square.

UGLY

!

Go back to my story,

Alright...one more paper to go before I finish my final exam.

The last paper is a resit paper which I failed it during the first year of diploma, the only failed paper ..After that, going to have my precious HOLIDAY for about 3 weeks. Planning to go back Ipoh for a couple of week. Properly I will stay in KL for few days before heading back . I need to keep fit at the time. I need to be slim.

Must!

Compulsary!

No excuses..